Lyrically speaking

As I was pulling together songs and pictures for Sekai's remembrance DVD, I was struck by some of the lyrics to some of his favorite songs. I love music, and so did he. Some of the songs he sang were obviously songs about us, and I had to be careful to not let him listen too much, even if they sounded like happy or inspiring songs from a cursory listen.

Like "Life is a Highway" by Tom Cochrane, which Rascal Flatts introduced to the younger generations when they covered it for the soundtrack of the movie"Cars." The line "there was a distance between you and I" was my first tip off. Then I learned the rest of that line is "a misunderstanding once, but now we look it in the eye." Reading through the lyrics now, I see even more: "There's one day here and the next day gone," "I love you now like I loved you then," "The road's so rough this I know, I'll be there when the light comes in, Just tell 'em we're survivors."

Ok, so reading, decoding, these lyrics is harder than I thought, especially today, one month after laying him to rest. So let me just post what I came on here to post.

Demi Lovato was on The View this morning, and as she walked out, they played "This is me". If you have no idea who she is, then you have likely been spared all things Camp Rock. Sekai loved Camp Rock. Well, he loved musicals, but Camp Rock was one of his favorites. I thought it was just because "Demi is pretty" (code for "hot", though he wouldn't admit to it to me, but would tell others, lol), but then I watched the movie with him and learned that it is actually quite good. The soundtrack, though, which is also quite good, is what tuned me in to some of what my sweet boy was looping over and over in his head, since some of the lyrics came directly from his life (my life, our life) and not just from the movie. So when I heard Demi was going to be on The View, I planned to miss that part, but ended up walking back into the room just as she was coming on to the stage, and I found myself singing along: "This is real, this is me, I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now."

Sekai, I know you are where you are supposed to be now (in heaven with Jesus, blessed be the Lord), but one month after laying you down, "You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing, I need to find you, I gotta find you. You're the missing piece of me, the song inside of me, I need to find you, I gotta find you." It took 11 years, but I did find you, and brought you back home. But now I cannot.